Something I left out from Monday's natehaas.com piece. It's very unedited, as you can tell:
Ashara looked at my palms once and told me I won't realize most of my dreams.
It's a very hard thing for a cultural worker like me to come to terms with.
I want to do everything, but I can't. After work, I goof off making stuff. I love doing it, but sometimes there is no time to sleep. So I'm late to work and then there's no time for goofing off and that's when I always get upset. And then, I'm let down more than anyone, I let myself down.
But maybe that's my biggest problem, I put anything that ain't on fire off till later. Everything from going to the bathroom to that big project at work. "Eleventh hour of the last night" has always been my peak time.
But I really need to change that. So I'm gonna read some now, but I want to get back to these ideas cause I need to make some rules of my own some general rules for living.
Heading west on the Pennsylvania Turnpike