in a world without greedy parking enforcement
every morning could start like that
the bahá'í fast is in a month
i've done it for maybe three years now
but i feel like i should, oh i don't know..
become a bahá'í first this time
there's a center up in san jose i want to visit
last night, i went to good chinese
and saw a friend joshua marker from my (first) college days
that's my girlfriend's name
i never mention her by name
but that's her name
it's a name that opens all kinds of doors
believe you me
anyway, we caught up a little bit
he's living a hard life, but has a nice view
spent most of the time
looking at edward tufte's books
I have decided to defer sjsu to the fall, if possible
and realize my portfolio for acceptance into the art program together
so more time and another parking sticker
at the best community college ever
and that ain't sarcasm
here's what i've been thinking for the past for years
i don't know how to act
or what to say and when to say it
i want to improve the world
leave it better than i came into it
i have a moral compass
i have an independent mind
i have a complete blind faith in everything
but i also am seemingly addicted to
self doubt, second guessing myself, underfooting and television
be myself ?
stop eating meat ?
start eating people ?
what the hell is right with me ?
i am making a bad joke about eating people on a website
i don't care who reads it
if i spent....
(a dictionary.com dictionary claims that phrase is obselete..)
i can do this
ps as someone who is in love, i can tell you that love is bullshit. maybe just to the same degree as anything nice, but still it's a damnable metaphysical virus in my experience.