May 7th, 2001

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Through the asphalt and up the hallways. . .

I came into work and typed my password in the wrong field. It came back rejected and I immediately thought I had been let go.

I have to get over this fear.

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I'm going to use this journal for what it's traditionally for.. self-expression and therapy.

I hate myself. I can't understand why after a week, I still have yet to do any real work.. it's pathetic and I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself.

I keep thinking I'm about to start, but then I get a little frustrated and I stop.

This stuff isn't holding my interest, but it should be.

It really should be.

Lord, I am in some hot water right now. I mean, I'm hardest on myself. I am. I admit that.

I'll try to be easier on myself and see what happens..

Yes, that's feeling better. Like giving advice to myself, instead of others.

Wow, I'm in love with journals all over again.

I don't even mind the perceived embarassment of revealing my true weaknesses.

Actually, I kind of enjoy it because I know they're some of you who will relate and that fuzzes me over. = b

Doing much better now..

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Miss Universe delegates try to make room for Ivan Batista, the event's official swimsuit photographer in Rio Grande, Puerto Rico, on Thursday, April 26, 2001. Seventy-seven delegates will vie for the 2001 Miss Universe title to be delivered on May 11, in San Juan, Puerto Rico. (AP Photo/ Tomas van Houtryve)

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ALL FUCKIN' RIGHT.. I am doing much better.

And I just ever so briefly caught up with Stephanie, one of the people I really miss from school. But the feeling is far from mutual. Whatever. = /

I'm a drop out. I'm a fuck up. And you love it.

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I'm being uncommunicative for the first time in many months.

I'm not responding to IMs or picking up the phone to call anyone.

I feel like a normal depressed person, like Asa or all these artsy people on LJ.

Except I repeat "FUCK THE WEB" to myself, again and again.

Maybe it's time to start going to bed early, instead of staying up late.

But you tell that to my Pacific Standard Time girl.

Where's the FuckMe key?

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Have you noticed how much attention series creators and screenwriters are getting these days? And I don't mean with the guild's contract negotiations. I mean, everyone is hip to the fact that there are these David Chases and Alan Sorkins and David Kelleys. And that's cool.

And of course, it's same with music video directors now too.

But next, we all need to know about our TV network executives.

Is it obvious now that Network is my favorite movie?