||[May. 7th, 2001|02:20 pm]
I'm going to use this journal for what it's traditionally for.. self-expression and therapy.|
I hate myself. I can't understand why after a week, I still have yet to do any real work.. it's pathetic and I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself.
I keep thinking I'm about to start, but then I get a little frustrated and I stop.
This stuff isn't holding my interest, but it should be.
It really should be.
Lord, I am in some hot water right now. I mean, I'm hardest on myself. I am. I admit that.
I'll try to be easier on myself and see what happens..
Yes, that's feeling better. Like giving advice to myself, instead of others.
Wow, I'm in love with journals all over again.
I don't even mind the perceived embarassment of revealing my true weaknesses.
Actually, I kind of enjoy it because I know they're some of you who will relate and that fuzzes me over. = b
Doing much better now..