i dont like who i am with this septum retainer in
there is some part of my
it's the part that let's me smile and forgive myself and not try so hard
god damn, i hope we shoot the short soon
so i can take it back out
i'm gonna take time to reflect and meditate
and look at old notes
figure out where i am
and where to go towards next
and other clichés
everything's not very hard right now, but people all around me are really complicating up my head
most of them aren't actually real
just disembodied voices telling me to stop trying
but i'm already trying too hard
and i'm not just gonna kill myself over this
i want to do... i don't know what i want to do
but i want to do something, not just sit around all day insulting myself
and staying up all night online without anything of my own to show for it
there are things i love in this world
and i'm not paying them any attention
wow. i haven't used all lowercase in several years. no punctuation either.
