Constantly second guessing myself.
I'm totally in love with channel 27 here. FSTV. They mostly show these fringy self produced documentaries. The one of now is early 1990s Time Square characters and their religious opinions, demonstrations, etc. by Richard Sandler.
Where am I going with my life?
Just before every new period in my life, I get really really nervous.
I wonder if I can do it. And then I don't want to show up.
But I do. And end up so much better for it.
That said, I am so uncomfortable around everyone who's not a good friend.
I don't know how I ever expect to sing a word in front of anyone.
But I do feel so much better after getting it down.
I escape with TV, but at the same time, feel more in touch with ideas I want to pursue.
Prolificy seems to always allude me.
I'll always find a way around it.
Not a loophole, but my own way.
I don't need to sing words.
Like the first time I heard The Jam.
How can I make money, if I keep second guessing my creative abilities?
God, I can get so whiny when I mess up my sleep schedule and think someone cares about what I'm feeling and what I have to say.
Oh damn it. kid606 is playing San Francisco this Friday.
What is it with this guy? Why can't he announce local shows a week before?
Guess I'm not going to LA... argh..